Nick's JournalWednesday, September 1, 20049:43AM - scheduleyes, that's right... after all those jokes and comments i'm stuck taking psychology... again... only this time around, at least i hope, it'll be a hell of a lot easier... considering it's regular and only a semester... but yes here's the reason why. to all of you who aren't aware of this i previously had weight training... but in sight that i was in a different class than brendon i decided to change it... after some laborious bending of the truth i was finally able to get my counselor to let me change classes, this involved my dad going to school w/ me and all... apparently it's a packaged deal, sociology and psych... and when i went there they had ONE opening... so i didn't think twice and took it... so now i'm taking psych again and sociology, both of which from what i hear are pretty easy courses.. so i'm not complaining... Wednesday, June 23, 20047:07PMso after numerous complaints about how i have a link in my profile to this thing yet never actually update it, i've decided to do so. Where to start... as anyone who's reading this knows, the school year is over and in a couple of months, i'll be a senior. quite a haunting thought since nine months after that first day of school, i will be off to college... probably NOVA for all i know, but frankly, i've stopped caring. Anyways, the much awaited summer has finally begun, but just like anything good, there's a dark side to it. that fear that had dwelled in the back of my mind for the past few months became a reality. all my friends are gone, off with more of their own friends, and here i am by myself. yet, the more i think of it, the more i realize maybe that's not entirely a bad thing, (for all you sick minded people out there, no that's NOT what i mean) this past week of solitude has given me time to think, as if i didn't have an overabundance of that already, BUT, it has, and so, i have. and in reality, it has been quite enlightening, it has opened my eyes to things i hadn't seen before, aspects of life i had never considered. it has made me see things i a completely different perspective, one of an outsider... an outsider's point of view with an insider's perspective... call me crazy, but for all i know, i am... all and all i've come to realize that... all this, all this i thought i had is nothing but an illusion... it's helped me see who in fact are my real friends and who were those who in the their minds wished they were else where when they were with me. i've come to realize that all those close bonds i thought i had were in fact just a mere figment of my imagination, a reality fabricated by dreams and hopes, nothing but a picture in the clouds quickly vanishing into thin air, or perhaps transforming themselves into the complete opposite of what i thought they were. at the same time tho, this has helped me see that those bonds that do remain are much stronger than i thought they were. this might change, as life does every second, yet at least i know what's really there, no longer am i blinded by my own mind. Current mood:  thoughtfulCurrent music: surprisingly... none... Monday, May 10, 200410:16PMwow... i'm... happy... weirdest feeling... i'm like... happy... insane i tell ya, insane... Current mood:  happyCurrent music: *HAPPY MUSIC* Thursday, May 6, 20049:51PM - *being forced by leah to write on this thing*ok... so yeah... i have nothing to say (nothing new to all those out there who actually attempt talking to me)... but let's see, what events are soon to happen in my life... hmmmm... yeah... none... well, what can i say... altho, states are coming this weekened.. i'm hoping we'll be able to place and medal... god that'd kick SO much ass... then the weekend after this one's stotes. (no chance in hell we're medalling there)... ummm and the ncasras and nats... nationals is gonna be pretty amazing i must say... w/ the whole flying down there and the woo hoo parks and stuff... and... the rowing also... Current mood: meh Thursday, April 22, 20043:26PMI want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. Current mood: ummmmmmm Monday, December 1, 20037:12PMlife sucks... ever since that damn sprain everything's just been going down hill... i've been doing SHIT in crew.. and pretty much everything else.. hmmm i wonder what it is Current mood:  depressedTuesday, November 25, 2003Sunday, October 19, 200312:57PM"you'll have fun", "oh c'mon nick, you'll have a great time, we'll all be in a group", "look i'm just like you, i'll hang out with you the whole time"... even those who didn't know me said to me, "oh c'mon, you'll have fun! you should go, it's a great time"... yeah... boy little did they know they couldnt've been more wrong... eesh... yeah... well i'd dare say the evening started well... well the first 5 or 10 minutes of it at least... brendo came over, picked me up and we went to laurain's... we played pingpong for a little while, then people started to arrive... then charlie got there... why... i dunno, but he went... so yeah... once everyone was there (minus the limo people)the dreaded pictures started... my oh my that was awful... thanks to my sky scraper stature i was always at the most visible spot in the pictures... oh fun... as if that wasn't enough the damn limo got there fourty five minutes late... of course this was bad since we thought the reservations where for 7:30... well didn't take too long for us to get there and for them to tell us that the reservations hadnt' been changed and they were still set for 8:30... ugh... well it wasn't too bad.. we went to "the irish pub" or something to that effect next door... it wasn't too bad, the fish and chips were alrite... then fuckidy fuck fuck... the dancing starts... we weren't even at the dance and fuck... bam... yeah... oh well i don't really care... then when we got to the limo everyone filed in and yup.. there i was the last one... so i went in and sat there isolated from the rest but what ever... sonali tried to cheer me up but failed... i didn't really want to be cheered up... but yeah... it wasn't until we go to the dance that i realized i had no business being there... i was dateless weird kid in an event that's really just made to sexually unite people... not necessarily in the sense that they will procreate... or attempt to do so... but just in an attraction sense... but yeah... there i walked around, my glasses fogged up... i attempted to leave but there were so many people coming in that it was physically impossible to do so... so i kinda walked around for ten minutes or so... saw THE MOST disgusting thing i have ever seen... rachel wax and ryan macrea... dancing... very much... yeah... well i diverged my sight from that as fast as i could... and kept walkin' around untill i bumped into ryan and laura... ryan almost convinced me to stay when he said we should go get a table... rite as we were gonna do this tho, this slow song started to play and laura dragged him into the vast tumult of people... they vanished before could even blink.. well at this point i decided it was too much... so i decided to fuck it and just go home... so i walked... in the freezng cold.. what usually takes me 15 mins took me half an hour.. through out all this i was calling brendon, laura, and jeff so ryan and brendon would come by that night instead of this morning to get the stuff... yeah... well brendon answered once.. but didn't hear anything... so he hung up... so when i was right next to my house i decided to go back to tell them to do that... i guess i did that to burn time too... so my parents wouldn't ask me TOO many questions... well i did that... walked to school... payed fifteen dollars, told them... glasses fogged up and all... then proceeded to exit... walked home again, and told my parents what had happened... well a parent version of what had happened at least... at least i got one thing out of the night... when I KNOW not to do something... i shouldn't listen to the rest... 'cause that's what i did last night... and well... u can see what happened :)... i should've never gone... never ever ever... ugh... well i learned my lesson... there's no way in fuck i'm goin' next year... two bad homecomings in a row is two too many... i'm done w/ Current mood:  blahCurrent music: none that you would be familiar with |